Of Blake’s three books, From Soldier to Civvy took the longest for me to assimilate as an entity. Much of this has to do with the format. It consists of four separate sections: short, complete accounts of National Service by eight individuals; Blake’s own Letters from Basics; the Border War as experienced by women; the view of ex-servicemen today. Of these, the last two are mildly similar to the form adopted in Troepie, except that each consists of a chapter with integral responses by the individuals concerned, rather than their interviews being divided up according to theme. As a consequence of this diverse format, the book highlights the state of the debate on the issue of National Service in the old SADF today. A hostile and negative review of Soldier in the Witness complained about the low level of debate on this issue 20 years after the Bush War. I am not sure this is accurate. For many years after the war, there was no debate at all. Men who experience combat are reluctant to talk about it. The political pressure on ex-servicemen as a consequence of apartheid has exceeded that experienced by either Vietnam Vets or ex-Warsaw Pact conscripts. Most ex-SADF servicemen have chosen to remain silent about their time in uniform, just to fade into the background. Generally, ex-servicemen are good at this; it was one of the first crucial lessons we learned in the SADF. Until recently it was certainly very NPC to recount positive military experiences, let alone to value one’s National Service for what it accomplished in one as an individual. And the camaraderie was, after all, the bonding of the bad guys against the good guys. Yet despite the post-1994 changes, the old balsak remained stored in many a roof or garage, though one almost pretended it didn’t exist. And in any case, men don’t whine about things like army training! There is this thing, too, that guys who have too much to say about their war experiences, and tell them too dramatically, and offer them too freely, tend to be taken with a bucket of salt by those who were in the thick of it all. Perhaps this is unjust, but it’s real, whether one likes it or not. Then came the book that changed everything: Jacqui Thompson’s An Unpopular War, with that seminal phrase which, in my opinion, unleashed what followed: “Today it is not socially acceptable for [ex-SADF conscripts] to speak about their experiences. But even if one wishes to condemn the politics of the time, one does no wish to do likewise with the soldiers.” The floodgates were opened, and life was never quite the same again. I was one of those whose floodgates were opened by this phrase. I had been reading about conscription in the NVA, the East German National People’s Army, and had compiled a rather apologetic account of my own diensplig in German for one of the authors. But somehow that phrase of Jacqui’s made it possible for me to roll back all the cover stories (in truth, defensive lies) I had built around my diensplig, and to tell it as it really happened. For the first time, a book had appeared which set the paradigm: that military service in the SADF was not just a political thing, that a soldier’s life is everywhere the same, that war is war wherever you fight it, that SADF soldiers suffered as much as any others and are deserving of understanding, and that one could be positive about one’s experiences as a soldier in the SADF. “Bella vita militar!” as the bellicose gypsy Preziosilla has it in Verdi’s’ opera La Forza del Destino (which, incidentally, contains some of the best operatic military scenes ever, including a patrol returning to camp at dawn). Blake took up the idea in Troepie, which weaves his interviews with a plurality of ex-soldiers into a single, continuous account of diensplig, together with the accompanying Troepie Snapshots. Both of these are descriptive rather than reflective volumes. But in Soldier, as Dorothy Sayers said in the introduction to her translation of Dante’s Purgatorio, “the sermons begin”. Soldier is at once a more reflective volume than the other two and a spectrum of the debate on National Service today. Blake refers to his three books as complementary. He calls them a triptych. One needs to remember that that debate on National Service in the SADF by ex-conscripts, as a significant public phenomenon, is only about five or six years old. The state of it at the beginning of this period, when Jacqui’s book appeared, is well summed up by one of the conscripts in the last section of Soldier: “So, in my twenties and thirties, I never thought about [National Service] much. It’s only in the last few years after meeting an old army friend that I’ve started thinking about it. We listen to each other. Nobody really wanted to listen to me about my experiences before, or he his...” Quite. It is where I myself have stood these past few years, and where, I suspect, an increasing number of other old conscripts now stand. Two years ago I almost never referred to my military service. Now I talk about it to the extent that I sometimes drive my friends crazy. I suppose it’s a phase one goes through... But they are all here. The highly melodramatic account of a very old soldier (a Bat, naturally) from the sixties with call-ups so secret they weren’t even put down on paper, who appears to have done camps for 14 years. The positive ones, the negative ones, the reflective ones; some informative accounts with technical information such as a Bat, an SSB gunner, an SPG and an SAAF loadmaster. Some like “André”, the Bat, have thought their positions on National Service through cogently. Some are irreconcilably contradictory. Some have the strong gut-reactions of men who are unused to expressing themselves, and who tend as a result to overreact and overdramatise. There is a significant element of masculine self-pity sometimes, too, and an apparent need in some cases of trying to persuade the interlocutor in order to persuade oneself. It is difficult as yet to form an objective picture of National Service. As Marlowe’s Jew of Malta has it, “…that was in another country; and besides, the wench is dead…” And in that arresting phrase that opens L.P. Hartley’s 1953 novel The Go-between, “The past is another country; they do things differently there.” When it comes to diensplig, there are so few official records to go on, and so few men as yet are prepared to open up about their own past. And, of course, we have our own individual experiences, our own axes to grind, all situated within the context of the small sliver of SADF life we actually experienced. These colour our objectivity. Very few people have heard of Hans Georg Gadamer, let alone his philosophy of the Fusion of Horizons, so as to be able successfully to apply the kind of objectivity he proposes: that in such a situation as this, it consists rather in identifying and isolating one’s subjectivity than eliminating it, so that, while being able to enter into and engage with the experiences of others, we nevertheless do not confuse ours with theirs. But the more one reads, the more a general pattern does begin to emerge. That is why it is so important for ex-servicemen to write and publish, or to be published. And it is in this above all that I am at odds with the Witness reviewer. As far as National Service is concerned, we have not yet achieved the critical mass of sufficient data on record to allow us a deeper and more reflective view of the Border War. Certainly the accounts of Louis, André, Matt and Kevin, the four best in Part One, show that such reflection is starting to emerge. In the process of this reading of others’ accounts, with the varied experiences it brings, a more attenuated and objective view about National Service, the bigger picture of it, will eventually appear. The serious intellectual debate will come…it just needs to be given time. The best way of objectifying experience is without doubt to get it down on paper – to give it an independent existence outside ourselves, so to speak. This always allows it to be considered in a more dispassionate light. Now for some specifics. The order Blake has followed is as chronological as the material allows. It starts with the old soldier from the ’60s and concludes with the section on contemporary reflections. In dealing with accounts of SADF experience, three main type can be distinguished. There are the short comments some people offer, which can be woven into a larger treatment of the topic. At the other end of the scale, there are the complete books such as Steven Webb’s Ops Medic and Granger Korff’s 19 with a Bullet. In between there are the complete accounts which are too long for the former, too short for the latter. Blake has done well by giving such authors a voice in this book, in gathering together such a variety of military experiences. I would love to see more of this kind of collection in print. The short accounts are often most informative, containing as they do the essence of the particular conscript’s service. The short section on women’s voices is for me the most difficult. They were the ones most affected by the propaganda and the blanket of silence that lay over so much of what happened. Most of the time they just didn’t know what was going on, and ended up filling in the gaps between official releases with intuitive (and mostly distorted) reconstruction of a world which was as foreign to most of them as it was to the soldiers in their lives before they were called up. I had no idea that the censor’s black Koki-pen could have such an intense effect; I suppose the fear of what lay behind those heavy black lines was that there is something unknown that ought be known. The women’s stories can be heart-rending. Their confused and sometimes contradictory views on the conscription of spouses, brothers and sons is understandable. Their boys came back to them changed, and they didn’t know why, and least of all were the boys concerned going to tell them. My mother, who was in the army during WWII, took my conscription with apparent equanimity, and my sister trusted in her confidence. Many years later, though, my sister told me that when I arrived on my first pass at 02:00, my mother was so afraid it was the military coming to tell her that her son was dead, that she refused to answer the door. I remember how extraordinarily happy my little sister was to see me whenever I came home on pass, and how she cried when I had to go back. In the last section, the views of ex-soldiers today are extensive and varied. The opinions expressed here are mostly just that; personal opinions rather than considered evaluations. But it’s got to start somewhere. In ten years’ time, what is written in these pages will form primary sources for studying the long term reflections of conscripts from the Border War era on their service. One cannot expect these accounts to be academic reflections – nor should one. But one can be glad that they have been captured for posterity. They are valid, inasmuch as they are the expressions of actual participants. For the moment, that is sufficient. Lastly, we come to Blake’s own Letters from Basics, which seem to have had an inordinate effect on the Witness reviewer, who thought them “dull…very dull.” He heaps scorn on Blake for being a G3 who never knew the tough training that G1K1 soldiers had to endure in the Seventies and Eighties. The attack is ad hominem, and has the unmistakable flavour of Lady Macbeth’s protests. But he is wrong on both counts. Blake’s letters are no more dull than a banana. The question is, do you like bananas? If not, you probably will find them dull. These are nothing more nor less than actual letters written by a soldier in Basics. Again, primary sources. A G3 conscript is no less important than a G1, and has just as much right to a hearing. Sure, when we were in Basics, the G1s did sneer at the Ligte Vrugte. But we were immature 17 or 18-year-olds, and it was also the politics of envy. My attitude on that issue had changed well before uitklaar. Today we are all simply ex-servicemen. And that’s what really counts. Secondly, Blake’s position is makes him uniquely qualified to write on the SADF. He did 12 months, like those called up until 1976, and thus feels no resentment about the duration of his military service. He does not carry the emotional baggage or the putative guilt of participation in the Border War or the Township patrols, which were over by the time he went in. His letters reveal the authenticity of his experience; it is not difficult to recognize this as we read them. Cameron was a genuine, full-blooded SADF troep. In consequence, he is able to grasp and contextualise the accounts of ex-servicemen, while remaining just removed enough to write about the Border War era without imposing a strong agenda of his own. Cameron, I assuredly did not find your letters dull. In fact, I had a good laugh over them. How could you spend so many pages telling your girlfriend and future wife about all the women you were ogling while in Basics? I’d have been too terrified of a “Dear John” letter on the lines of, “Well, have them all to yourself, then!” Books like Soldier are always vulnerable to carping and nitpicking. It’s not hard to rip them to shreds. It is easy to complain about specifics; it is easy to be negative. It was easy to be so in army Basics, with its opfoks and rondfoks and afkaks and vasbyt. But to be positive about something that you experienced negatively; to be able to see the “big picture”; to co-operate willingly and committedly with the guy who’s “breaking you down to build you up”, and tells you so, and expects your samewerking; to be positive about these kinds of things is very difficult. So is being positive about a book like Soldier, and for similar reasons. But there is in it a great deal about which to be positive. And the best is that is records, to repeat, so many primary sources. Even if that’s all that happens for the next ten years, even if the level of debate or reflection is not of the most articulate; none of this matters. What matters is that the story as told by those who were actually there, is recorded. We must entrust the raw data to another generation, one that was not involved. They will make something thoughtful and considered of it all. But if we do not tell our own stories, someone else might do it for us, and in a way that does not necessarily reflect reality. One last comment. I don’t know to what extent Blake intended this book to be a Mikrokosmos of the SADF and those whose lives it touched, but that is what it has turned out to be. In a discussion with the composer Sibelius, Gustav Mahler, himself a symphonic composer of note, countered Sibelius’s proposal of the symphony as a compact, logical form with: “No! No! A symphony is like the world. It must contain everything!” Ditto Cameron’s book. Read it. You’ll certainly get a 360º view of SADF National Service from today’s perspective.